...you dread weekends. I mean absolutely dread weekends. For most people the weekend is a time for relaxing and having fun. For me, it means I'm alone with too much time to think. I try to keep myself busy. Today I rearranged my parents basement (my home for now), cleaning out my brothers room because he left for two years to china, so I could make my own space for writing. Not blogs...I mean real writing. I also cleared out a storage room and used 6 old mattresses that we had laying around to construct a sound proof(ish) room for recording vocals. After I did that I spent most of the night recording vocals to my latest song, "I am Icarus." There is a lot of screaming in the song. My throat feels pretty torn up but I think it's turning out pretty good.
It's 3:30 in the morning and I should go to bed but I'm just so sick of life right now that I fear sleep because I fear that I'll lose some thought or idea that could revolutionize my life. I've been crying a lot lately at the most random moments. Today I started crying and I didn't even realize it, tears just started falling down my cheeks. I was like "Damn, I should be an actor...being able to cry on demand like that."
I'm lame. I'm feeling pretty shitty right now so I'm going to go play NCAA football and rack up a buttload of nice stats.
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